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I told my boyfriend that I don’t really eat

and he says “oh that means your metabolism is really slow”

I think it’s because I’m fat and don’t really eat.

Also, he’s a nationally ranked weightlifter who can predict how much weight he can gain/lose really easily because idk forumlas and shit. He’s also a personal trainer on the side and wants to train me and tells me that it’s a $100 an hour service, and how he’s offended. It’s annoying as fuck because he gives me so much unsolicited advice. I know he’s trying to help, but I never told him about my weight issues or that I want to lose weight, and I never will because I once told him that I make myself throw up when I’m really drunk “so I wont have a hangover the next day” and he was so grossed out. Like what if I told him about what I used to/ sometimes still do to myself?

He keeps trying to fix me, he’s so controlling I don’t know what to do. When we fight it’s always about me, I never give him any shit about anything. Like he wants to do nude modeling (LOL) and I told him to do it. I think it might be that I really don’t care about him at all and he’s only my boyfriend because he was the only applicant. He’s also a pretty decent guy, in terms of his future and whatnot, sex-wise he’s really freaky and I’m not really sure how I feel about that.

Oh and once I sort of called him fat. He showed me a pic of himself at the beach a year or two ago and says he wants to diet back down to that weight 15 pounds. I was like “only 15 pounds?” and he was like “WHAT.” and I was like “… I mean you look fine uh…” idk what are words. I would be a horrible guy. 

Anyway since I have been eating only one meal a day, I’ve lost a pound a week. So yay, I guess. And this is after I stopped working out. 

Although I should start squatting again so I can keep my sassy quads and get dat ass.